Posts Tagged‘Holidays’

Holiday Strong, Holiday Enough

My husband and I joined this program they were having at our gym this year mainly because we liked the tiny rubber bracelet we get to wear for joining the program: it says, “It’s on, Holiday Strong.” Somehow, the dark, twisty, precarious nature of holidays past vanishes when I look at this bracelet and hear these words in my mind. The longing of moments gone by and the idea that I must somehow produce perfect Norman Rockwell moments for my children melts away. The ideas that my food will not taste “good enough,” or my presents will not “be enough,”…

‘Tis the Season to Do All Stuff We Will Regret In January, Falalala Crap, Lala, Lalaa

It’s mid-October, and I’ve already managed to run over a Christmas display with my shopping cart at the grocery store. Most of me believes it was an accident, yet there is a part of me that felt something twisted and naughty toward the cardboard Santa I flattened. I love the holidays, don’t misunderstand; but I also realize that for many, holidays are fraught with repressed emotion, easily activated by the traditions of the past. A special holiday song, a scent, or even a cardboard Santa can trigger the hard stuff, particularly if we’ve experienced a recent loss or are living with unaddressed emotional pain. The part of me that felt a tingly, pleased sensation after my encounter…